I'm dying of cancer and I'm going out my own way

So Jesus will throw me into hell is what you're saying? I'm not religious, I hate the new age tavistock religion most call spirituality, I believe in reincarnation and I believe in the spirit and dream worlds. I have had out of body experiences I have played games and had conversations and adventures with spirits and demons and ghosts in my dreams. And I have died multiple times now even died recently. There's more to life and the places and people in between lives than bible Jesus Heaven reward or Hell punishment. Following someone else's flawed morality and moral imperitives will not serve me or anyone else. Simply Bowing on my knees and hoping for the best will do nothing to help anyone and it will not bring meaning or purpose into my life. I do not need to pray I do not need salvation that is not what I am seeking. I am seeking meaning and purpose in death

@PirateWithCancer: So, you had OBEs too, I died at least three times (that I can remember-- and maybe more crossovers but not deaths.) I met I want to say "The Gods," but there's only two and I met one of them. There is the God of Israel El and his Wife and Age of Taurus "cult rituals" shagging partner Ashereh, the Tree of Life. She was well "canceled" after Mount Sinai some time and her idea was merged with Canaante witch goddess Ashtaroth, who appropriated Her Ashereh poles. So, I speak with expereince: I was protected against and fought demons both in this world andi n the spiritual world. You are correct: There is a lot of made up shit about spirituality. I strongly believe religion was used because "I, Pharaoh" need you to build this pyramid so I can help you in the afterlife... and now you are slavers. Really interesting how that seems to work all over the world... sort of like we humans were designed to be slaves, slaves to the "Sons of God" or the "Anonnauki" (Those From Heavens Above)... just saying also how interesting everybody at the earliest times including the sex cult Jews mention both Sons of God and Anonauki. The giants I believe are formed as hybrids one of both of them and human women. I know giants are real: We killed at least one in Afghanistan and my unit was there when they flew it back-- well my base was deployed there too... So, it's real. Very Real. I am not sure you need to "religious" to be "saved," but it helps. It is an artfact left over by Mystery or Slavation Cults, in which Christianity is one of them. God seeks us out if He has need or want of us, but we are born with a piece of Him, our Soul, which aloows us to perceive time-- the past, present, and the future. We are likely the only animals with this power or perception: Most all live in the present with some having rudimental memories or past feeling or "instincts" I believe is as it presents itself to them. I like your attitude: It's like what TFM says, "If you already decided on going (ie suicide) take some friends... leave the world a little better." I too wanted to leave this world a little better that the shitty one I was born into, but then, them damn traitorous Demoncrat had to go and really fuck shit up making it all but impossible now...

fuck... well, that was longer than I thought. I should have warned you... I am a writer!