Don't let it get to you

I'm not letting any of this fear or threat get to ME. Infact I'm adapting to it as we go. I've had a pretty SHITTY life anyway's and although things are a lot better for me these day's, I'm now old and don't give any fucks about anything anymore. so I don't let it get to me. I don't fear death so I fear nothing. Their are two out comes when I die, both are appealing when that time comes. Eithger I close my eyes for the last time and there is FUCK ALL beyond this miserable life, therefore I'm not going to be aware oif it at all. On the other hand if our Soul or conscience is recycled shall we say, then their is a possibility of a new start? Either way it will be a welcome release from this hell hole! lol! By the way "NO" I'm not Suicidal! lol! it is often said "what is the meaning of life"? Well IO think the meaning to my life, be it BORROWED time because I died for some minutes after birth, That meaning for me is to witness the fall of humanity, well as it currently looks, it could be to see Humanity grow some BALL's evebn, who know's. Yep I'm kinda grateful for the borrowed time I was alloted thanks to some nurses and an Oxygene Tent way back in December 1955!