Are you 18 years old or above?
Explaining my love hate relationship towards women
If that is what happened through your upbringing, I can see why you are very confused. Your parents did nothing to guide you into having relationships, condemning you instead. You were also sandwiched by the fact that you were receiving negative signs from women which was natural(hey, if they do not like you, they do not like you...big whoop). Good thing is, this #metoo and community laws came at the right time and it will set you free. Now you have the ability to travel around the world and see what is out there. Travel to a country where you will not be oppressed in seeking intimacy. Think of this as a blessing. You have no baggage in being #metooed or losing tons of money (more than you had lost as described here).
I feel like going Gogeta SSJ4 when I keep thinking how bad these community laws screwed our gender.
I am an older white man whose experiences with females were similar to yours, so I question whether or not being black was a significant factor in your misfortune. The other differences were that I had/have an IQ in the genius range (you are far more intelligent than you think you are, BTW) ; looked and sounded good enough to have been a television presenter for a while; I have held a black belt in Shotokan karate since my youth; I am a former army officer; a journalist; qualified as a secondary English and history teacher; and my family had money. My current net worth is well into seven figures. You might think that girls would have wanted me. Wrong! Girls bullied me and made my life miserable at school. After school, I could almost not get a date until age 30, which was when I gave up on the project. Why? Because females aged 15 to 30 want shitbag bad boys. After age 30, they want beta providers, who have the resources to rescue the females from the consequences of the self-destructive choices that the females made when they lusted after the ‘exciting’ bad boys. My loneliness, yearning and heartbreak has morphed into a combination of cold indifference, contempt and a touch of hate. I want to live long enough to watch the world burn and hear the screams of women, as they perish upon the fire that they made.
sorry U suffered so much :(
But I dont want to have hate in my heart, I want to learn to forgive and simply move on :)
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